Got up at a normal time and ran errands today. Yay! Managed to get a lot done, and get out in the sunshine. Well, as much sunshine as you can get from the inside of a car. Between the summer heat and the humidity, just walking from the parking lot into the store makes me break out in a sweat. So actually going outside for any length of time is just out.
Good old Florida summer.
So I'm feeling satisfied today. Not depressed, but not manic either. Just right. It's funny that when I'm depressed, I have a hard time remembering what it was like to feel good, and when I feel good, it's hard to remember how I felt when I was depressed. Or even that I was depressed. About a month ago I was completely non-functional. Then, even though I felt better, I couldn't get much accomplished because my sleep was so erratic.
Lately, sleep has been my number one issue. Now that I'm sleeping nights again, I hope I can stay this way, instead of gradually moving around the clock again.
We'll see.
Wow! The first sentence of the third paragraph really hit home with me. Like not being able to see the forest for the trees. When I get depressed, I feel like I was never happy before. And when things are going pretty well, I figure I'm "cured" (ha!) and don't need to worry about it any more.It's hard to let in optimism when everything is pushing you down.
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