Blog goals

Well, writing my last post kind of started me down the road towards depression. That's the damn trouble about examining my feelings, or even talking about them. Fortunately, I had appointments with both my pdoc and my therapist yesterday, and it helped a lot to be able to talk to them about it. I think just getting out of the house and actually making it to the appointments helped, too.

Still struggling with sleep. I have a few little things to do today and I really want to exercise. If not exercise, then at least stretch.

I started this blog with the idea of having an opportunity to vent about depression. It soon became a road map that I was trying to create towards feeling better. I also wanted the chance to reach out to others who are depressed and maybe try to help them.

I have learned a lot of tools for dealing with depression, and I really believe that these tools can work, but only if I bother to use them. And I'm kind of lazy about it. So this is a way to keep me accountable and keep me honest.

I'm depressed, or someone with depression, but the funny thing is, I think that I am basically an optimist. I believe that even after all these years living with this illness, I can get better. At least I've learned that despite the depression, there are still times that I feel okay, and even times of great joy.

I hope that if you are dealing with depression, you can hold on to this.